The Doraemon Lover

我能寫部落格也只剩三更半夜的時間

Stress is already engulfing me to the edges so early that I cannot imagine what’s gonna happen in future when I’ll be facing more.

I’ve been late to school late for three times within two-and-a-half weeks. The discipline head called my father, but nothing really significant happened domestically.

A lot of homework… really a lot. You know, during the past two weekends, I plunged myself into trying to complete all my homework almost the whole of the time I’m awake, though I have to admit I slept a lot because all those mountainous piles of work drained all my energy too quickly.

Sleep - one good ol’ reason my mum has been nagging at me. I came home from school, did a little of homework. When my eyes started drooping at the complicated trigonometric mess, I went to sleep at about 9 PM and set the alarm at about 11.30 PM to continue conquering the heights.

11.30 PM, she heard the alarm and she just had to do her job as usual to nag about how I would sleep so much and stay up at night to do my homework.

I CAN’T FUCKING STAND THIS ANYMORE. DOESN’T SHE UNDERSTAND THAT IT’S SO FUCKING NORMAL IN THIS FUCKING BUSY LIFE OF THIS FUCKING BUSY SCHOOL TO BURN THE FUCKING MIDNIGHT OIL JUST TO COMPLETE ALL THE FUCKING HOMEWORK?

Fuck, seriously, what’s wrong with me sleeping? I sleep because I’m really fucking tired. She sleeps almost 2 hours more than I can and doesn’t, of course, understand what I fucking have to go through - plus what I have to in school!

And at least I don’t leave my homework alone! SHE DOESN’T FUCKING RECOGNIZE THE FACT I’M REALLY DOING MY HOMEWORK LIKE ALMOST ALL THE TIME THIS YEAR.

I BROUGHT MY HOMEWORK TO FAMILY DINNER, I TOOK THE MRT DOORS AS MY FUCKING TABLE TO WRITE MY ANSWERS FOR SOME FUCKING CHINESE COMPREHENSION.

And I have stuffs like writing songs for the school CNY celebration to manage. I’d love to do such things I love but just because of my fucking homework, I wanted to refuse such tasks - but I couldn’t.

I can’t even do things I love - yet I’m doing the things I don’t really love so dedicatedly.

And she just loves to barge in my life to keep nagging about me. I’VE GOT FUCKING ENOUGH STRESS FOR MYSELF BEYOND MY FUCKING MANAGEMENT AND SHE’S MAKING MY WEIGHTLIFTING BAR ON MY SHOULDER MUCH HEAVIER BY PRESSURIZING ME WITH ALL HER NAGGINGS.

Seriously what the fuck is wrong?!

I don’t hate school, I’m fine in school. But I really wanna consider lightening my burden  - should I just drop a content-laden subject like Biology?

Sian, I’ve got Biology test tomorrow and I have yet to read anything about it.

Oh give me a break…